july '24 (14/07)

soooo that new job, i quit the day after the last update with no backup plan and im currently still uneployed, but i've got plenty of interviews lined up :) i don't regret my decision, but having some time off has led me to think about how i want to structure my life more.
i've ditched my fairphone 5 for a samsung galaxy folder 2, while i'm waiting for a japanese flip phone to arrive, im really looking forward to it - i want to do more "digital detoxing" - part of the reason i started this in the fist place, and i think having a dumb(ish) phone that's still compatible with things like spotify is the next step in that.
as for the village situation, even though this time last year i was living in a city (and had done my whole life) im really liking it here, i go for daily walks and they're actually nice walks - like through wheat fields and stuff, and there's SO MANY stars in the sky its unreal - i can't wait for the meteor showers next month, they're gonna be amazing from here, last year i drove out of london to watch them, this year i'm going to walk for 5 minutes to a field surrounded by trees to keep the light pollution low, it's honestly so nice here.
so that's how things are going at the moment, i'm unemployed (hopefully not for long), doing a digital detox as part of a lifestyle change, and living life in a quaint little sussex village

june '24

lol i started this new job and its actually so bad, feel so fucking alone here compared to my old one that i left over money
i turned 24 this month, and moved to a village, but apart from that i've mostly been feeling regret from leaving my old job over a bonus of all things - though i think i could bag a payrise going back...
in all honesty it's probably some sort of combination of burnout and the bonus which made me leave - and the burnout wasn't because i hated the job, i didn't, i just didn't take time off because i was moving this year so wanted to save the leave. i've screwed up - so i'm already looking around for onsite jobs rather than MSP work - MSP is not the life for me, onsite is so much nicer - you know the client, you have a team you work with, it's just nicer (even though it's generally not as well paid, but i'd argue the pay is NOT worth it lmao).
so that's where im at this month, a new house, a year older, a new job (literally only had it 4 days as of writing this) and looking for a new one, or even returning back to my old place.

april '24

i wanted to do these more regularly but sometimes life gets in the way and i forget about little projects like these, the past couple months i've been gearing up to move house, that should happen within the next couple of months
ive not been keeping up with doing art much, but i'm blaming SAD for that, it's almost may and it's grey and dreary most days - the one week lately where it was sunny i was in the best mood i've been in for months! can't wait until summer, it feels like it's been perpetually grey since late august.
i've been learning how to forage this spring - made a garlic soup with wild garlic (which was lovely btw, super green and garlic-y) and been making some nettle tea which is surprisingly nice. i can't wait until berries start growing from brambles, they are the best

january '24

this was a good month! nearing the end now so want to get a overview out there.
at the start of the month i took my brother back to university, treated him to lunch, and helped him move back in.
after that round trip my car started making a grinding noise, turns out the rear brakes & discs are worn quite heavily, and the caliper on the driver side rear was sticking - so got that replaced and repaired, the type R's running brembos now! need to do the front discs and pads too at some point, but they're not desperate for it.
this month ive also neglected to do any paintings - that changes this weekend, i plan to take a (smallish) edible, get those creative juices flowing and paint over this weekend - i say smallish only because the other week i had an edible which was way too much (i used some avb on a biscuit with butter) and ended up having a crisis laying in my bed! but have done smallish amounts since and been fine, so i'm confident i'll be okay.
overall a good month - decided to move out at some point, i need my own space lol
i also saw bring me the horizon live at the o2 in london!! best night ive had in ages, throat killed me the day after but that's a sign of a good gig to me - i've got the "post gig blues" now so i keep looking at others to go to nearby - king gizzard are doing a brighton show later on in the year which i might book tickets for